why?

why do i care so much?
why do i let the littlest things bother me so much?
why do i want this to happen and all work out both ways when i know it can't already?
why can't people believe me when i talk about the wavaire issue?
why can't i act stupid and be crazy if i want to?
why do I have to have everyone's opinion when i don't ask for it?
why is it NOT accecptable for me to put my faith in God in front of wavaires/choir?
why am i going to be denied the opportunity to do something i love and have a passion for?

And last:
Why did God put this plain and dry this morning during church when I was half-asleep, but yet i was still able to hear THAT part??
b/c I've finally been given an answer...and I WILL follow through with this!!! It's going to be tough and it's going to be one, if not THE, hardest thing that I've ever had to do....but I'm going to deal with it, through the good, the bad, and the ugly...
why?
b/c this has completely come from God and when I call out to Him for help, and He answers...I better as well follow His lead..even if it seems crazy, and not fun at all(like it does now).
I just have to keep this verse in mind throughout all of this:
Jer. 29:11- "I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "Plans to prosper you and not to harm you. Plans to give you a hope and a future."

So, for all of you who don't believe me, stop questioning me on this issue and trying to talk me out of something that God has told me to do...instead, Pray for Me!!! It's going to be a long haul and tough to get through...now THAT'S what I'd appreciate!:)

Sometimes God works in mysterious ways, and this, well, this is going to be quite an adventure!

trusting Him fully....